Beautiful Between

living fully in the now & not yet

You’re full of beauty, meant to be shared. Is it time to put it out there?

You are full of beauty meant to be shared. There is wisdom you’ve gained in hard-won battles. There is strength that’s been forged in the flames of adversity. Don’t you think it’s time to share? /// I think about you often. I wonder about the dreams and desires you keep tucked away and what’s holding […]

When you just need grace to grieve

When I finished the first few chapters of my friend Natalie‘s new book, I begged her to send me an advance copy. I had to know the rest of the story and let her words wash over me like water. I am overjoyed to share her with you this week! Here is a piece of […]

Overwhelmed by tragedy? This is what you can do

Sometimes you hear the news and it rips your heart clear out of your chest. Doesn’t it seem that’s happening a lot lately? Micah had watched the coverage late into the night; I slept peacefully in the next room. Monday morning, his voice was heavy. Every word sank with the weight of sorrow as he […]

Where is God when I’m depressed?

I sat at a stoplight, trembling with anxiety’s rattle and hum. The sky was bleak; charcoal clouds seemed to mirror my soul. The familiar fog of depression had rolled in and I was weary of the struggle. It’s exhausting: wrestling to be whole, never shaking the bone-deep loneliness. There’s an excruciating physicality to mental illness […]

Looking for purpose? One way to REALLY change the world

I forgot how to pray. Physical therapy reminded me.

I’m practicing squats when my physical therapist brings the boxes over and sets the yellow pine stack behind me. They only come up an inch or so past my knee. I know what’s coming. “Let me see those squats again.” He’s a former personal trainer and I’m about to get my tail kicked. He looks […]

How to make your home your refuge (it’s not what you think)

He was baffled at my tears, but of course, that made sense. I was just as confused. Stacks of boxes leaned precariously. Piles of linens flopped over the side of an armchair. Our kitchen table was half-covered in pots and pans. And we were trying to find our way through it all. I’d moved into […]

The simple truth about my restless heart: it’s not really about home

I don’t remember how home feels. There’s always just the longing and the missing. There are hints in place, in cities and countries where something gnaws at the inside of my heart. Even so, in those places there is no stability, no consistency, no home. Home is where the heart is, they say, and mine’s […]

How to live a richly beautiful life: 3 simple ingredients

There’s a painful space between what is and what should be, between hope’s conception and fulfillment. We live in this gap with the tension of unfulfilled dreams. The heartache of loss. The sickness of deferred hope. Life isn’t quite what we expected. We’re longing for wholeness or relationships or children, mending grief or marking time in kitchens and cubicles. Amidst soul […]

This is how to find the sense of purpose you’re missing

This newlywed season is strange and lovely, the end and birth of two lives at once. I hoped and prayed for years to be here. Now, I wouldn’t change it for the world. But there are some things that surprise me about this season, longings unexpected sprouting up. Huge life changes breed questions of near-existential […]