Beautiful Between

living fully in the now & not yet

Looking for purpose? One way to REALLY change the world

I forgot how to pray. Physical therapy reminded me.

I’m practicing squats when my physical therapist brings the boxes over and sets the yellow pine stack behind me. They only come up an inch or so past my knee. I know what’s coming. “Let me see those squats again.” He’s a former personal trainer and I’m about to get my tail kicked. He looks […]

How to make your home your refuge (it’s not what you think)

He was baffled at my tears, but of course, that made sense. I was just as confused. Stacks of boxes leaned precariously. Piles of linens flopped over the side of an armchair. Our kitchen table was half-covered in pots and pans. And we were trying to find our way through it all. I’d moved into […]

The simple truth about my restless heart: it’s not really about home

I don’t remember how home feels. There’s always just the longing and the missing. There are hints in place, in cities and countries where something gnaws at the inside of my heart. Even so, in those places there is no stability, no consistency, no home. Home is where the heart is, they say, and mine’s […]

How to live a richly beautiful life: 3 simple ingredients

There’s a painful space between what is and what should be, between hope’s conception and fulfillment. We live in this gap with the tension of unfulfilled dreams. The heartache of loss. The sickness of deferred hope. Life isn’t quite what we expected. We’re longing for wholeness or relationships or children, mending grief or marking time in kitchens and cubicles. Amidst soul […]

This is how to find the sense of purpose you’re missing

This newlywed season is strange and lovely, the end and birth of two lives at once. I hoped and prayed for years to be here. Now, I wouldn’t change it for the world. But there are some things that surprise me about this season, longings unexpected sprouting up. Huge life changes breed questions of near-existential […]

If you feel like you’re not enough, this is for you

I wanted to talk about when you feel like you’re not enough. I wanted to tell you how I cope and struggle against the innate sense of lack so many of us carry. But as I wrestled with the words, something inside pushed back. As a kid I thought about hiding on recess as a […]

When life is crazy and you just can’t keep up, do this

I was running errands on my lunch break, trying to squeeze a few items from the to-do list into my too-busy life, when I got the call. “Can I call you back, love?” I didn’t want to keep the bank teller waiting, but it wasn’t like my husband to call mid-day. “No, babe, no. I […]

I can’t thank you enough

My dear friend, I cannot thank you enough. Last week, I asked you to share your heart with me, and share you did. You overwhelmed me with your vulnerability, your courage and your stories. You opened up about hurts and fears, about the messes and secret dreams. My heart beat a bit faster, resonating with […]

Tell me how to serve you better: Survey

Wherever you are, whoever you are, this is for you. These words are all for you. I’ve always poured words onto pages for myself, but I started this blog almost two years ago because of a whisper in my heart and a hope to serve others. So much has happened in that time – we’ve […]