Beautiful Between

living fully in the now & not yet

Discouraged? Ashamed? You need to hear these 5 words

I was twenty and terrified, standing unannounced on their porch on a hot July night. My legs froze and nausea filled me. I felt like every moment was never-ending, like I was eternally dying inside. Before coming, I’d meticulously covered the long gashes on my thighs. I was there to tell the truth, but I […]

This is what you need to know if the darkness never lifts

I sat at a stoplight, trembling with anxiety’s rattle and hum. The sky was bleak with charcoal clouds seemed to mirror my soul. The familiar fog of depression had rolled in and I was weary of the struggle. It was exhausting: wrestling to be whole, never shaking the bone-deep loneliness. The fog formed a dense […]

You are delightful. But you need to learn to see.

I found joy for the first time 10 years ago in a perfect, Parisian spring.  Paris is every bit as magical as you’ve heard, but perhaps not in all the ways you’d expect. It’s still a filthy, crowded urban area. Traffic is ridiculous and there are homeless people in desperate need of help and racial […]

This is why God isn’t waiting to punish you

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After weeks of working, trying to make it better, trying to bring restoration, they finally heard the word of God. The priest read and the Levites explained the meaning for hours, filling in huge gaps in Israel’s collective memory. They have come to rebuild and inhabit Jerusalem after long, hard years of exile. And now, […]

Are we missing something big about the cross?

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It was like hearing the old story for the very first time, there in that makeshift Welsh church. I was living in Paris and it was quintessential spring, with cherry blossoms on the Champs-Elysee and girls in sundresses laying out in the parks. Ten years ago and just like yesterday, you know? But despite the […]

We Don’t Talk About This on Good Friday

For he made him who knew no sin to be sin on our behalf, that we might become the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus.  2 Corinthians 5:21 We talk about the supper. In still and gentle tones, the last message of a dying man, shared and sung around the table in time-honored tradition. Love […]

God With Us: Behold

Today, we remember the day that God put on skin. It’s in every corner of the story, the crimson thread that runs with astonishing consistency. He’s coming for the broken, the shamed, the burdened, the unknown. Reading: John 1:1-18, 1:29 Song: Behold the Lamb of God and The Theme of My Song by Andrew Peterson […]

God With Us: The Unwanted

Unreliable. Liars. Thieves. Unclean. The words echo, but not across the dark field. The words are inside, and the shepherds can’t escape. They’re caked with the grime of their work and a stigma that’s never quite washed away. /// Reading: Luke 2:8-20 and 4:18-19 Song: While Shepherds Watched Their Flocks by Andrew Peterson* ///   […]

God With Us: In Labor

Long months have passed. The wait is almost over. She’s kept Elizabeth’s words tucked in her heart, pulling them out when she needed them: “You are blessed, blessed for believing the Lord would fulfill His promises to you.” Reading: Luke 2:1-7, Matthew 11:28-30 Song: Labor of Love by Andrew Peterson /// Mary never imagined the […]

God With Us: In the Tension

The promises have been spoken. There’s a child coming, and something great beyond understanding is underway. Reading: Today, there is no reading.We’re in between the announcements and the fulfillment. We’re sitting in the tension, so let’s take a moment to reflect. Whatever connected with your heart, take some time to remember God is with you […]