Beautiful Between

living fully in the now & not yet

How to find hope in the darkness of depression

I know it doesn’t feel this way. You might not believe it. But it’s going to get better. It really is. A day will come when you feel joy again. Maybe it will take you by surprise and you’ll wonder at the realization: this wide-open feeling, this laughter inside? That’s happiness. Or maybe it will […]

Discouraged? Ashamed? You need to hear these 5 words

I was twenty and terrified, standing unannounced on their porch on a hot July night. My legs froze and nausea filled me. I felt like every moment was never-ending, like I was eternally dying inside. Before coming, I’d meticulously covered the long gashes on my thighs. I was there to tell the truth, but I […]

I love Jesus but I want to die: what you need to know about suicide

I was in California on a business trip, just yards from the beach, eating ice cream and laughing as the conversation drifted away from business. Eventually, somebody mentioned a friend-of-a-friend who had died by suicide. The familiar ache and nausea filled my chest. My insides rattled when my coworker said he didn’t understand what would […]

When hope hurts, here’s what you need to do

I know, it happens every year. I see the photos in my feeds, too: rings and flowers and first looks and all the trappings of idyllic wedding days. I can’t keep track of all the #bestdayever captions, the gorgeous honeymoon photos, or the engagement announcements. As Jessica Faith says, “It can seem like all social […]

After one year, this is why I REALLY love my husband

Micah makes me laugh. He cares for me better than I have ever cared for myself, better than anyone has ever cared for me. He is my complement in so many ways, sturdy and stable in the face of my deeply felt emotions. He is more than everything I’d hoped. There is so much I […]

You are delightful. But you need to learn to see.

I found joy for the first time 10 years ago in a perfect, Parisian spring.  Paris is every bit as magical as you’ve heard, but perhaps not in all the ways you’d expect. It’s still a filthy, crowded urban area. Traffic is ridiculous and there are homeless people in desperate need of help and racial […]

When you need a reminder your life is here and now

I’m not quite sure how time has slipped by me. It’s been three weeks since I’ve written you; it’s far too long. I knew what I wanted to say in January: we talked about becoming who we want to be and forming the habits that will get us there. Then February came like a whirlwind. […]

This is what you need to do before heartache hits this year

Have you ever had a year go exactly as you planned? Or even as you hoped? Neither have I. We plan and prep and hope. And we’re working to become who we truly want to be. But we don’t foresee the drops on this wild roller coaster. The twists and turns aren’t quite what we expected, […]

The unexpected secret that will make you who you want to be

Our shiny, new year tarnishes quickly, doesn’t it? The ball drop and midnight celebration seems so long ago now. By now, more than half of those who made New Year’s Resolutions have quit. There must be a secret that keeps the select few going. That’s why we’re spending the month looking at who we want […]

This is how to become who you want to be

Last week, we asked ourselves a big question: who do I want to be this time next year? It’s not what we’re used to, after years of asking what we want to or should do. But the answers come from deep within – they’re often more true, more beautiful, and even more interesting than any […]