Beautiful Between

living fully in the now & not yet

7 soul-filling fall self-care ideas (and why you need them)

I had a fever that wouldn’t come down, no matter what I did. I cradled ice packs to my skin and alternated Tylenol and ibuprofen, lived off of ginger ale and Pedialyte pops for the better part of ten days. There were pain and an ER trip for fluids, tests, and pain meds. I’ve never […]

You’re full of beauty, meant to be shared. Is it time to put it out there?

You are full of beauty meant to be shared. There is wisdom you’ve gained in hard-won battles. There is strength that’s been forged in the flames of adversity. Don’t you think it’s time to share? /// I think about you often. I wonder about the dreams and desires you keep tucked away and what’s holding […]

When you just need grace to grieve

When I finished the first few chapters of my friend Natalie‘s new book, I begged her to send me an advance copy. I had to know the rest of the story and let her words wash over me like water. I am overjoyed to share her with you this week! Here is a piece of […]

I forgot how to pray. Physical therapy reminded me.

I’m practicing squats when my physical therapist brings the boxes over and sets the yellow pine stack behind me. They only come up an inch or so past my knee. I know what’s coming. “Let me see those squats again.” He’s a former personal trainer and I’m about to get my tail kicked. He looks […]

How to make your home your refuge (it’s not what you think)

He was baffled at my tears, but of course, that made sense. I was just as confused. Stacks of boxes leaned precariously. Piles of linens flopped over the side of an armchair. Our kitchen table was half-covered in pots and pans. And we were trying to find our way through it all. I’d moved into […]

The simple truth about my restless heart: it’s not really about home

I don’t remember how home feels. There’s always just the longing and the missing. There are hints in place, in cities and countries where something gnaws at the inside of my heart. Even so, in those places there is no stability, no consistency, no home. Home is where the heart is, they say, and mine’s […]

How to live a richly beautiful life: 3 simple ingredients

There’s a painful space between what is and what should be, between hope’s conception and fulfillment. We live in this gap with the tension of unfulfilled dreams. The heartache of loss. The sickness of deferred hope. Life isn’t quite what we expected. We’re longing for wholeness or relationships or children, mending grief or marking time in kitchens and cubicles. Amidst soul […]

If you feel like you’re not enough, this is for you

I wanted to talk about when you feel like you’re not enough. I wanted to tell you how I cope and struggle against the innate sense of lack so many of us carry. But as I wrestled with the words, something inside pushed back. As a kid I thought about hiding on recess as a […]

When you’re missing the beauty and just need to breathe

He got on one knee on the lakeshore, holding my hands and my heart. His words were loving and kind; his eyes saw into me deeply. “These past nine months have been the hardest, most redemptive and most restorative of my entire life. I want to spend all of this life and the next loving […]

My body wouldn’t break…so I couldn’t heal

girl sitting on curb

“I’m fine,” I say. I’m regaining consciousness. I feel the heat rising from the blacktop and the sun beating down. My head feels full of sloshing liquid. A panic starts to rise in my chest, a shuddering heartbeat and a trembling in my limbs, but I shut it out. I imagine a door slamming shut […]