Beautiful Between

living fully in the now & not yet

Want to Change the World? A Letter to Friends on Mission

Nicaragua mission trip

You’re headed out to change the world. Maybe it’s your first mission trip; maybe it’s your fiftieth. Either way, anything seems possible, like a window to change is wide open. But as you go, remember this: changing the world doesn’t happen the way you think. Your leaders prepared you well: immunizations, messages, packing lists, prayer. […]

Single? Why You Shouldn’t Wait to Love Your Life

Sunset with silhouette of single woman

My feeds are flooded with highlight reels, page after page. Lives seem glorious: over-the-top proposals, idyllic wedding days, sweet moments with spouses, a mom hashtagging gratitude for the way a tiny head fits on her shoulder.  It’s hard, this quiet honesty that wells up in my single heart: I want that. Why not now? Why […]

I’m Not Disappointed In You

Today, I am both honored and anxious to share a deeply personal story on Steve Austin’s blog: I’m Not Disappointed In You. This is a story of the darkest time in my life, of struggles with depression and dangerous coping mechanisms. I never thought I’d tell this publicly: a journey like this is hard to […]

Just a Little Weekend Update

Well, friends, it has been an exciting few weeks for me and this corner of the online world. 2016 is already surprising me with its twists and turns: unforeseen opportunities, new friends, old stories being told and healing I didn’t know I needed.I’m amazed to discover some of the things that will make their way […]

Guest Post: The One Thing That Saved Me After My Suicide Attempt

Note: I am so honored to host my new friend Steve Austin as he courageously shares his story of messy grace and redemption. (To read the original post about Steve’s suicide attempt, just click here.) If you’ve known dark days, are tired of a picture of Jesus that only brings condemnation, or are just plain weary, this […]

Why The Shepherds Heard First: God Loves the Least

“And in that same region there were shepherds out in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night.” – Luke 2:8 They were caked the waste of an existence that could never quite be washed away. The filth of their work stained their souls as much as their skin. They were despised, deprived of […]

7 Simple Ways to Make Your Own Christmas Magic

Everything is shimmering, red and gold. Stores are brimming baubles that sing of the season, and it’s easy to see the wonder of the season wrapped up in them. Still, the craving for new and pretty makes my heart feel weary and hollow. Is this the source of the magic? Is this the Christmas I […]

Contentment: How Not To Be Lonely on Thanksgiving

Leafy Trail Radnor Lake

Thanksgiving looked different for me this year.  I couldn’t spend it with loved ones – Oregon is just too far, and I had just visited my sister to meet my new baby niece.  Being far from home can make for a tough holiday and an opportunity for extra loneliness to seep in.  I didn’t want to […]

A Beautiful Between

Together, we are living in the gaps. With the tension of unfulfilled dreams. With the heartache of loss and the sickness of deferred hope. Somewhere along the way, we run right into that painful space between what is and what should be. We hope for relationships, for children, for jobs. We long for healed bodies and souls, a […]