Beautiful Between

living fully in the now & not yet

How to find hope in the darkness of depression

I know it doesn’t feel this way. You might not believe it. But it’s going to get better. It really is. A day will come when you feel joy again. Maybe it will take you by surprise and you’ll wonder at the realization: this wide-open feeling, this laughter inside? That’s happiness. Or maybe it will […]

Discouraged? Ashamed? You need to hear these 5 words

I was twenty and terrified, standing unannounced on their porch on a hot July night. My legs froze and nausea filled me. I felt like every moment was never-ending, like I was eternally dying inside. Before coming, I’d meticulously covered the long gashes on my thighs. I was there to tell the truth, but I […]

I love Jesus but I want to die: what you need to know about suicide

I was in California on a business trip, just yards from the beach, eating ice cream and laughing as the conversation drifted away from business. Eventually, somebody mentioned a friend-of-a-friend who had died by suicide. The familiar ache and nausea filled my chest. My insides rattled when my coworker said he didn’t understand what would […]

After one year, this is why I REALLY love my husband

Micah makes me laugh. He cares for me better than I have ever cared for myself, better than anyone has ever cared for me. He is my complement in so many ways, sturdy and stable in the face of my deeply felt emotions. He is more than everything I’d hoped. There is so much I […]

You are delightful. But you need to learn to see.

I found joy for the first time 10 years ago in a perfect, Parisian spring.  Paris is every bit as magical as you’ve heard, but perhaps not in all the ways you’d expect. It’s still a filthy, crowded urban area. Traffic is ridiculous and there are homeless people in desperate need of help and racial […]

When you need a reminder your life is here and now

I’m not quite sure how time has slipped by me. It’s been three weeks since I’ve written you; it’s far too long. I knew what I wanted to say in January: we talked about becoming who we want to be and forming the habits that will get us there. Then February came like a whirlwind. […]

Christmas gifts that give back: world-changing presents for everyone on your list

“Every time you spend your money, you’re casting a vote for the kind of world you want” by Anne Lappé via Change Co Are you as overwhelmed as I am with the frenzy of the holidays? All this rush and rustle wears me thin. I love the holidays, and I love giving gifts…but the process […]

7 soul-filling fall self-care ideas (and why you need them)

I had a fever that wouldn’t come down, no matter what I did. I cradled ice packs to my skin and alternated Tylenol and ibuprofen, lived off of ginger ale and Pedialyte pops for the better part of ten days. There were pain and an ER trip for fluids, tests, and pain meds. I’ve never […]

You’re full of beauty, meant to be shared. Is it time to put it out there?

You are full of beauty meant to be shared. There is wisdom you’ve gained in hard-won battles. There is strength that’s been forged in the flames of adversity. Don’t you think it’s time to share? /// I think about you often. I wonder about the dreams and desires you keep tucked away and what’s holding […]

When you just need grace to grieve

When I finished the first few chapters of my friend Natalie‘s new book, I begged her to send me an advance copy. I had to know the rest of the story and let her words wash over me like water. I am overjoyed to share her with you this week! Here is a piece of […]