I’m practicing squats when my physical therapist brings the boxes over and sets the yellow pine stack behind me. They only come up an inch or so past my knee. I know what’s coming. “Let me see those squats again.” He’s a former personal trainer and I’m about to get my tail kicked. He looks […]
He was baffled at my tears, but of course, that made sense. I was just as confused. Stacks of boxes leaned precariously. Piles of linens flopped over the side of an armchair. Our kitchen table was half-covered in pots and pans. And we were trying to find our way through it all. I’d moved into […]
I don’t remember how home feels. There’s always just the longing and the missing. There are hints in place, in cities and countries where something gnaws at the inside of my heart. Even so, in those places there is no stability, no consistency, no home. Home is where the heart is, they say, and mine’s […]
There’s a painful space between what is and what should be, between hope’s conception and fulfillment. We live in this gap with the tension of unfulfilled dreams. The heartache of loss. The sickness of deferred hope. Life isn’t quite what we expected. We’re longing for wholeness or relationships or children, mending grief or marking time in kitchens and cubicles. Amidst soul […]
This newlywed season is strange and lovely, the end and birth of two lives at once. I hoped and prayed for years to be here. Now, I wouldn’t change it for the world. But there are some things that surprise me about this season, longings unexpected sprouting up. Huge life changes breed questions of near-existential […]
I wanted to talk about when you feel like you’re not enough. I wanted to tell you how I cope and struggle against the innate sense of lack so many of us carry. But as I wrestled with the words, something inside pushed back. As a kid I thought about hiding on recess as a […]
I was running errands on my lunch break, trying to squeeze a few items from the to-do list into my too-busy life, when I got the call. “Can I call you back, love?” I didn’t want to keep the bank teller waiting, but it wasn’t like my husband to call mid-day. “No, babe, no. I […]
My dear friend, I cannot thank you enough. Last week, I asked you to share your heart with me, and share you did. You overwhelmed me with your vulnerability, your courage and your stories. You opened up about hurts and fears, about the messes and secret dreams. My heart beat a bit faster, resonating with […]
Wherever you are, whoever you are, this is for you. These words are all for you. I’ve always poured words onto pages for myself, but I started this blog almost two years ago because of a whisper in my heart and a hope to serve others. So much has happened in that time – we’ve […]
He got on one knee on the lakeshore, holding my hands and my heart. His words were loving and kind; his eyes saw into me deeply. “These past nine months have been the hardest, most redemptive and most restorative of my entire life. I want to spend all of this life and the next loving […]
